New Horizons

After being back in the real world for a little over a month, I realize things aren't as bad as they were before I left. My job is still unrewarding, sterile, and full of unneccessary drama; but it is not killing me like it was before. I have a new head on my shoulders and the ability to pick and choose what will and can make my life fall apart at any given moment.

I have a direction I want to travel and am working on the way to do that. I'm building my armor for negative comments, unbelievers, and jealous monsters alike, as well as my web for those inspirational moments, the deep lasting conversations, quietly positive motivators, and the people in the shadows who gain nothing, but sincerely await the moment you reach your goal if only to celebrate with you that moment in time.

I've gained a new belief in myself that was lost long ago. Watch out world!

Ok... on to new and very important topics.

Every morning on my way into work I have great thoughts that I could write about for many minutes. Everyday when I get to my desk they immediately erase themselves from memory and I am left to attempt to dredge these visions/thoughts from my mind. Sometimes it works; most times it does not.

After I've decided to move on from dwelling on the misery of no thoughts (this desk must take most of my creativity) I turn to my "Bad Girls Daily Desk Calendar 2007" so I can see what words of wisdom I have for the day. Most days the calendar warrants a chuckle from the "10 Best Uses for Pantyliners" or "Personal Dating Commandments" but my favorite one so far has been February 15, 2007.

Thursday, February 15

Bad Girl Party Pointer
Score a Free Drink Tonight!

Order your drink as usual, then act completely surprised and quite flustered when you open your wallet and find nothing but foreign currency. Then act really embarrassed and apologetic and loudly sputter something like, "Silly me! I've been so busy unpacking, I've forgotten to change my euros/yen/NYC subway tokens." Then gaze around the bar like a doe until some gallant soul offers to pay for your drink. Be prepared to chat him or her up with your exciting tales from abroad. If you're a skilled raconteur, you'll be drinking for free for the rest of the night.

Why I like this... I just got back from Costa Rica, and until about a week ago, still looked sun kissed. I might have actually been able to pull this off if I lived somewhere that people were actually friendly enough to just chat up the person next to them with no hidden agenda, but unfortunately, I reside in Seattle. If, if someone were paying attention to the girl at the bar during happy hour who forgot her wallet, I'm not sure they would be outgoing enough to help her out, and if they were, you have to be careful about making sure they aren't a serial killer since we breed them here. AND, since its so cold here, in order to show off my lovely tan I'd have to brave the cold wind and rain (forget about doing my hair) in order to go out to a bar where they still have the ac on, so a girl has to keep her coat on inside anyway.

Needless to say, I can't wait for summer. For an open air patio and a SLIGHT (please!! slight only.. not a steady blowing) wind. Where Seattleites congregate on Fridays at 3 in order to get a table outside, because if its a nice day, you better take advantage. Or, if you are even luckier, you have a friend with a boat, who wants to take it out for a spin. Summer here is magical. Seattle becomes a different place, all 560,000 people are outside engaged in one activity or another, soaking up that essential Vitamin D that escapes us about 5 months of the year. I welcome summer with open arms, flashy sunglasses, and great looking flip flops.